I dropped my youngest daughter off at the airport last night after spending 5 days with her over her Easter break from college in Boston. It is always hard to say goodbye to my girls and I find that I have to readjust to the empty nest all over again. Do any of you Moms feel that way, too? It seems that it doesn't matter how long they have been away from home, I still go through a mini grieving period each time they leave. So, this post may be a bit all over the place as I struggle to get my rhythm back.
There are many thoughts swirling around in my head this morning. I am going to open a window and let you see what is going on inside there. Perhaps there is something in here that you will connect with or relate to.
1. I feel that I need to set some serious goals for myself now. I know it isn't a typical time of year to be thinking about goals, but I have had some time to reflect on things lately. I don't spend a lot of time navel gazing as I tend to like action but once in awhile I like to stop and take stock and figure out where I am heading and if a course correction is needed. These goals cover the gamut, from growing my business and becoming better at what I do, eating better and exercising more, getting into one house with Stu, to setting some financial goals. My husband is very wise and he taught his boys when they were little to think of life like a pizza with many slices. A slice for each part of your life- spiritual, physical, relationships, financial, career, fun etc... Each slice is important to your overall well being and you can't let one slice go neglected for too long without it affecting the pie. It's easy when you are trying to build a business or start a career or you are dealing with a physical illness to stop thinking about other parts of your life but if you don't stop and get some balance back, you will suffer. Any benefit you might have gained in that one area of intense focus will be lost by the erosion in the other neglected areas. I have always struggled with balance in my life- I am extremely focused when trying to achieve a goal and I tend to let things get out of sync. So, maybe if I can make balance my new goal, I can get there!!!
2. I read a lot of stuff online in the mornings before I get out of bed. Sometimes I read stuff when I wake up in the middle of the night which seems to be happening a lot lately. Note to self- go see a Dr to get something for these horrid hot flashes! Although I love to read lifestyle and design blogs, I kind of get sick of reading about what is on someone's spring "must have" list or what they are "lusting after". Or "envying". Don't get me wrong, I appreciate seeing pretty things as much as the next girl (maybe more so!) but sometimes it feels over the top, doesn't it? I hope that my blog doesn't come across that way. My desire is to help people create an environment that brings them joy and makes them happy to be there. It doesn't mean you have to get the latest thing to impress your friends. I hope I don't sound preach-y, just something that is on my mind.
3. I love being around my daughters not only because I love them, but because I am interested in seeing things through their eyes. I went shopping yesterday for a dress with Emmy for a function she is going to in May and it was really fun to see what she liked, what caught her eye and how she looks at things, in general. I want to remember this and make it a point to remain connected with younger people for the rest of my life, even after my kids are middle aged (yes, Emmy, Hilary and Charlotte, you too will be "old" someday!). And it is a two way street. We have some interesting things to show them, too. Like some good old movies with some cool style- like Love Story which Emmy and I watched while she was home. She loved Ali McGraw's style- the eyebrows, half up half down hairstyle, the kilts and matching scarves and the wrap camel coat. We both agreed that we would have to stop the movie before the scene in the Drs office in the future.
4. I want to learn how to take really great photos. This might require that I actually read some manuals and watch some tutorials online. As much as I detest that sort of thing, I think I will have to do it in order to get better. And I also want to write a novel. I have an idea percolating that may or may not ever see the light of day. We'll see...
That is a peek into my head at this moment. I would love to hear what is on your mind today. What are you thinking about?